कुछ केहना था

This is me trying myself at a Hindi composition. Sincere apologies to non-Hindi readers.
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यूं तो कुछ केहना था, लेकिन 

समझ नही पाया की आखिर कहाँ से शुरू करूं,

अंत मे कुछ नही बोलना ही सही समझा

देख कर तुम्‍हे याद तो आई थी कुछ बातेँ,

मैं समझ नही सका की कहाँ छुपी थी यें,

अंत मे कुछ नही बोलना ही सही समझा

पूछने पर तुम्हारे कुछ बोलना चाहता था,
शायद सोचा था की बोलना ज़रूरी नही होता, 
क्यूंकि हर बार की तरह इस बार भी मेरी आँखों ने दोखा दिया था मुझे,
लेकिन तुम समझ नही पायी, इसलिये 

अंत मे कुछ नही बोलना ही सही समझा

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©2014 Aman Gupta

Smile, my Dearest

I'm not good at this.





When you asked me to smile, I did.
When you asked me to laugh, I did.
and when you asked me to be there, I was....
now you want me to watch you like this, I can't do this.....

_________________________

In the softest night and in the purest heart,
there was a spark and it grew,
and it made you laugh, it made me laugh,
made the days roll away.......

You're eyes sparkled and gleamed,
you hair shone in the sun,
and your smile made the day, a beau-tiful one(e).
I thank the god for giving me a great friend in you.

I pray for you to have everything you need,
everything you want. Everything that you'd dream of.
I want you to smile, and that's what I'm always wishing for..


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This one is for a very old friend, to remind her that I'm always here.

That Again

I have,
by my all thinking self,
surrendered to your humble requests.
Nothing will,
make me want to change, that.

Will there be less light,
in that path, that,
I don't know but,
I'm sure of this, that,
your sunlit eyes will make my way.

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And beyond the places with tinkle trees,
sweet sugars and creaking bees,
lies the wisdom of the worlds,
that is sure to be enough, for
everything that I dare pass
will come back and it will
flash, your eyes before
you could blink that amazing
story of an ink and the thing,
with white petals and some roses.

Amazing that,
story of us, took the time,
it took. But now when its time,
I can't find my inner courage,
and ask the question that,
is so late that its a legend now.

Wondering my faults and making amends,
takes much time and may offend,
those people which keep waiting
on the doors of others, wondering
when to knock and listen in.
That time for me to be gone has passed
making way for another me,
that one which won't be same like the one before him.

I only wish, it will last,
for everyone involved in that.


That's all for now. ©2011 Aman Gupta

When Duty Calls

There's New and there's Old,

there's beaches where we go

This way is sun

yours is that one

Every time I keep on getting old (at this)

There's you (who) makes me back away

But, today, I must go away

For today I have no where to stay

and my Duty calls, now I must be away

for you don't need me anymore

By the houses

we used to play

danced and had fun

all throughout the days..

as every moment, was really good

I will always, keep 'em in my memo-ry

But, today, I must go away

For today I have no where to stay

and my Duty calls, now I must be away

for you don't need me here, anymore

Now I must say those words,

which I don't want you to hear,

but do remember, you were always there

(and I appreciate that)

 Today... I must go away

For today I have no where to stay

and my Duty calls, now I must be away

for you don't need me...... anymore now.

©2011 Aman Gupta

Goodbyes and Farewells....

It was never, ment to be this way....

I souldn't have, let myself s-way.....

-Now its coming back, its making my-

-head spin wrong, making my world go bonk,

making the last few seconds of my life difficult to say to you......

Goodbyes and Farewells....

Goodbyes and Farewells.......

Goo-od Byes, and....farewells.....



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Now, I should have never let you t-ake,

my heart this w-ay,

because things change, in a matter of d-ays..

It really hurts, when you don't answer me back,

I see the d-ark...-ness in your eyes AND ITS MAKING ME MAD!

Now, its too late to say sorry,

to say you're never gonna leave me...A-l-o-n-e!!!

Now, its - Comin' back, its making me sad,

you're making it hard, to saaa-ay-y...

Goodbyes...and farewells,

Goodbyes and farewells......

GOODBYES and FARE-WELLS!

go-od byes.......

and farewells....

This is a really special song and I might do this on a guitar someday but for now, this is all :)

Come together Part 2

Come back to me girl tonight,

and we'll talk about the-

-fight, we had that-night-

and I'm sorry as I told ya' before.

even still it ain't my fault

that you left before breakfast.

I listened...listened every words you said,

and went back to the time we had,

I couldn't hold it and,

went mad,

couldn't tell you that

I loved you more than anything I had,

couldn't say the words -I was meaning to have-

-to say to you what it is to be in this-

-place, where I wanna say something, but can't..(that)

HOOK:

Ow! Baby, I(i) am(am),

Waiting for you on the edge,

Waiting for the night to end....

Waiting for you to come, 

and hold my'e' hand.

That's all I wanted to say,

baby come back,

make my day,

make my world a little more realistic,

//but I couldn't get past the damn feeling of regret,

I tried, tried harder than you,

controlled my self to say things at you,

it wasn't easy I ad-mit but,

it was easier when I saw the pain you would feel if I did -it..//

so, I comeback looking for you,

I don't wanna hurt you,

jus' wanna save you,

from the autocracy of the world.

Now, I'll just wait here on the edge of

the night, waiting for the stars and the moon to rise....

because I'm -

HOOK:

Waiting for you on the edge,

Waiting for the night to end....

Waiting for you to come, 

till the light from the sun,

touches my skin and it burns

I need to run,

clear up some space hon',

I'll be late, don't wait up,

don't 'Goodbye' me dear,

I'll be back,

and before you know it,

we'll be right on track.

and all I wanted to say,

baby come back,

and make my day...everyday.

©2010 Aman Gupta

Goodnight :)

Wrote it in the night to wish someone a good night :)

I walk on the Oceans which spew the tides of time, 

I climb on the memories and make my way though the night.

I sense the nature, round and round, it makes me spin, 

faster I get the slow things become, 

and the rabbits pounce much higher than before. 

I taste the smells and make cakes of my dreams, 

I bake them in an oven made of sweetness and cream.

I see with my hands the surprise in your eyes, 

when I close them for you to wish you....

a Good night...and sweet dreams :)

©2010 Aman Gupta

Time to Remember

///PARAGRAPH:
Com-on, its time we showed you,
What it is,
to be in my place,
Its too hard that,
I hadta,
look back,
But its all I wanted,
so dump the world and ride with me......

//RAP:
Its not everyday that one-
-finds himself, regretting.
Of all the people he knows,
only those reply-
-who he doesn't rows..and he-
-know that he have to make some more tyme
to explain the pain,
make you forget the rain,
Its all so stupid to say.
So, I come back, see you there,
feel you here, wanna be near-
to you, bear with me you,
coz I'm here, where are youu?
I'm here but you were not there.
Now the months pass forward like-
there no tyme-
to write these stupid rhymes and
get on with my boring lyfe.
Its So Depressing that I had to stop-
Mah self to say the things I felt-
when you looked at me for the first tyme...

//REFRAIN:
I Won't look---,
look back into the---
Time...THE time when we had the RHYMe-
of life waiting at the doorstep for-you...fo--r, you...

I won't see----,
see you when you come back,
to feel the pain in my eyye,
feellll...the pain in my eyes.......

//RAP:
No, no, no, no,
Its all happening too fast,
I wished to make it last,
It didn't needed to be so fast,
Ow, man,
Its ridiculous that-
sometimes all your life boils down to the fact-
that nothing counted except for heRr and-
everything I wanted was her to know that-
I will always be her numba one,
as long as Im A-alive.
I'll live for you, you and you alone could-
make me numb,
make me cry till one,
but on the other ha-nd,
make me smile and make me laugh,
that's the power you have-
over me, you CONTROL ME-
baby, know that, I'm and will always be-
the one to who'll love you long,
till its Christmas time h'on,
coz then I won't be here
becoz the santa's ain't real.....

//REFRAIN

I Won't look---,

look back into the---

Time...the time when we had the rhyme-

of life waiting at the doorstep for-you...

-won't see----,

see you when you come back,

to feel the pain in my eyye,

feellll...the pain in my eyes.......

//PARAGRAPH:
To you, yeah, you!!,
Come on and join me,
its time, we showed-
the world what it is...to be yourself...

©2010 Aman Gupta

Cometogether

I listened...listened every words you said,
and went back to the time we had,
I couldn't hold it and,
went mad,
couldn't tell you that
I loved you more than anything I had,
couldn't say the words -I was meaning to have-
-to say to you what it is to be in this-
-place, where I wanna say something, but can't..(that)

O! Baby, I(i) am(am),
the-one-who-makes-himself-suffer,
and-makes-others-differ,
holds-his-breath-to-prove-hisself
but-couldn't make up his ow(ow)n mind.

I wanted to say,
baby come back,
make my day,
//but I couldn't get past the damn feeling of regret,
I tried, tried harder than you,
controlled my self to say things at you,
it wasn't easy I ad-mit but,
it was easier when I saw the pain you would fell if I did (it)...//

I need to run,
clear up some space hon',
I'll be late, don't wait up,
don't 'Goodbye' me dear,
I'll be back,
and before you know it,
we'll be right on track.

and all I wanted to say,

baby come back,

and make my day...everyday.

©2010 Aman Gupta

Remember....

Remember....

I want to see ya,

No one's believing,

I could cross the time and come back for(for),

You...Yeah, You..

You make me feel,

feel what is re-eal,

Make me laugh,

I still remember all the times we had,

make me cry,

whenever you are not besides me, (Oh Girl!)

Girl, I couldn't have been more wrong,

I thought so, but I was not strong,

I made it my life,

to watch the happiness in your eyes.

/In the day of the summer we had, together

we saw what its like to be,

together we would cross oceans and see,

the world come and see what it is,

You go, leave me alone,

now the world isn't mah home,

I wanted you, I didn't wanna leave,

believed me you,

but I had no fuckin rhyme to tell you,

now I came back for you,

now I don't want nobody either,

I just wanna look,

look into those...eye.s...../

Girl, I couldn't have been more wrong,

I thought so, but I was not strong,

I made it my life,

to watch the happiness in your smile.

/The smile made my day,

believe what you may,

I pray, pray to neva' leave you alone,

oh wait, I just did that before,

baby, please, don't go,

I am here,

come back and make me your own,

I am here, where are you?

Oh don't...don't go,

come back and wait

TO SEE it is what I believe it is,

Yes! its me that is,

I am ready to believe,

isn't it whatcya'  wished?

now come back,

let me hear ya,

know wha'? I wanna get to kno' ya!/

And after I go,

I don't know

Will you come back,

Who knows...

But let me take this time...

to say...

Thank you! and that's all I wish.