Showing posts with label Good bye. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Good bye. Show all posts

Left Unsaid

As my dear readers will recall and people close to me can testify, I'm content with things left unsaid. The feeling of never ending captured my heart and I took to it as inspiration to go on. This is probably the reason why there is not a single post here which gives an accurate insight into my mind.

So anyway, this is a very personal post and maybe not of interest to you but if you feel like reading, well, I can't really jump out of your screen and stop you from doing it.

Most people find it odd if not altogether disturbing that I don't like speaking to people about what goes in my head, how I feel about them or even how the morning coffee at the local coffee place was high on caffeine. Such important things when left unsaid may ultimately lead to people thinking that I don't really care or I don't value them or worse, that I'm a caffeine addict. (which incidentally, I am)

Ah well, I guess you can probably tell where I'm heading with this. 2015 was supposed to be my last year void of workplace tensions. Last year with friends, which I had thought of making the best of, back in 2011. Yes, 2015 was the planned year of me passing college education to step in the world of people hustling and making a living.
But the most predictable thing about life is its unpredictability.

I won't be passing college in 2015, I won't be passing from my college at all actually now that I think about it. Things like this become trivial as time passes but I guess, for now and for me, it is a bigger deal than I had thought - solely in the way it has impacted my view of world.

Well, simply put, an average human meets ~80,000 persons in his not so average lifetime of ~30,000 days. That works out to roughly 2.67 people met per day of life lived.  How, if I may ask, are we supposed remember them all?

The answer is, we don't.

We don't need to remember all those 80,000. Just a little cozy number of 100 works great for most. Something every little neocortex can handle.

Well, think of it this way, if you had 100 tickets for this years Google I/O to give away, you'd want to give those to people who you'd actually want to talk to about the latest memory optimization in chromium. (No, you're not coming. Maybe next time.)








What I'm really trying to say is, sometimes, there are people whom we may have never met before but we can still relate to them, and not just because of the shared food and drinks over some cake and.... mmm... cake...










... and then there are people who you've probably known for the most part of your adolescence. Spunky, quirky, spontaneous, brilliant...












... people you can be non-adult around. I mean, not everything has to serious. Right?











... it would be a shame if it was though. We'd missing on so much of fun and laughter and adventure and most importantly, good coffee...













... and er, some other things...













... but even more importantly, more cake over some more shared stuff...











... and some over not shared stuff too I guess...















... Not to forget how some certain emotions are very contagious, spreading across everyone present...
















... and very quickly too. But don't just take my word for it..
















... go out and see for yourself.












So you see, it isn't that great or anything. Just some people meeting some more people along the journey of life. It isn't that complex, or easy, for that matter. You really gotta hold your own, or there's no telling....



... where you might get swept off to.



Always remember,  The End Is the Beginning Is the End.










... not everything needs telling. But I guess some do deserve to be told. Nothing left unsaid I guess.

©2015 Aman Gupta.


The Road

I suppose it does get a bit contrived towards the end. I mean, as time goes by, the charm walks along with it. Or, maybe runs. Hell, I'd say it even has a strap on rocket launcher, but then that would be too particular of me.

It was like walking on a long road. It was not the smoothest of roads, but well, it was one with the charms. At least at the beginning of it. Well, it was like any other road in ways that it twisted and turned and even kind of forgot its own way in the middle but always did find it later. Not the smoothest of roads, but well, it really had the charm. It's really fun, walking down this road. Lots of new things to see and feel and observe.
Not the smoothest of the lot but well, it still has the charm going for it. Really long though, no doubt. I wonder what it'd be like if it were smooth. Probably not that good. I'm already at a very bright horizon, led to by the road. But it really isn't that smooth you know. Kind of difficult to walk, if you ask me. But hey, there's always the charm of it. Yep, it's there alright.
It's been some time, my feet hurt from walking on the road. You see, it isn't the smoothest of the lot. The charm's still here. No doubt. That should be enough. Slipped up on the road a couple of times, hurt my knees, but that's alright. If you walk a road, and roads are made to be walked on, you will trip once in a while. Okay, a couple of times. Alright, a dozen.  It's quite fine really. I'm too busy noticing the way and admiring the wonders to pay much thought to it.
It really has been long now. Travelling on the road. No it is definitely not smooth. Kind of rocky lately. My feet's all bleeding from the sole. The charm, yeah it's here somewhere beneath all the rocks but the rocks hurt for the most part.
Alright, I think it's enough. My feet are wobbling and giving up on me and while I think I can crawl on ahead, I don't think more injuries would do me any more good. It's a road alright, not smooth and too rocky. The charm was there but it's buried beneath all these rocks thrown by the road. Can't really see it anymore.
I think I'll stop now. Say bye to it for the last time, always afraid of it. But there's no more way ahead on the road. More rocks maybe.

The road's not smooth. But it's a road alright.


©2014 Aman Gupta

Stirrings

Time is at a standstill. An infinite ocean of dark starry skies. Moments in peace and tranquillity. A long vastness and emptiness settles over you and really, that's just how you want it.

There's a worked out pattern in the universe, everything, more or less, happens according to it. Twirling of stars, beating of hearts and just about everything you can think of. Life itself is a cycle of beginnings and fateful endings. The only real rule of universe is, everything that starts must end sooner or later. Sometimes you thank that things got over sooner than later but mostly, you wish if there was a later to speak of.

The silent night sky cares not for your troubles, it's merely there. At all times. Some people take comfort in embracing this and others just frown and kick air.
The silence is disturbed sometimes by an echo from the deep reaches of the star systems, it can numb your senses for a few seconds but it'll pass and the silence will be restored again.

The darkness isn't new to you, it has always been there. Not as a predator but as an accomplice. There's no running, only embracing.

I'm not alone because others can't embrace the truth. It's because others can't embrace the truth, I'm alone.


You won't be hearing soon. Till it's late.

©2013 Aman Gupta

When Duty Calls

There's New and there's Old,
there's beaches where we go
This way is sun
yours is that one
Every time I keep on getting old (at this)
There's you (who) makes me back away

But, today, I must go away
For today I have no where to stay
and my Duty calls, now I must be away
for you don't need me anymore

By the houses
we used to play
danced and had fun
all throughout the days..
as every moment, was really good
I will always, keep 'em in my memo-ry

But, today, I must go away
For today I have no where to stay
and my Duty calls, now I must be away
for you don't need me here, anymore

Now I must say those words,
which I don't want you to hear,
but do remember, you were always there
(and I appreciate that)

 Today... I must go away
For today I have no where to stay
and my Duty calls, now I must be away
for you don't need me...... anymore now.





©2011 Aman Gupta

Goodbyes and Farewells....

It was never, ment to be this way....
I souldn't have, let myself s-way.....

-Now its coming back, its making my-
-head spin wrong, making my world go bonk,
making the last few seconds of my life difficult to say to you......

Goodbyes and Farewells....
Goodbyes and Farewells.......
Goo-od Byes, and....farewells.....


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Now, I should have never let you t-ake,
my heart this w-ay,
because things change, in a matter of d-ays..
It really hurts, when you don't answer me back,
I see the d-ark...-ness in your eyes AND ITS MAKING ME MAD!

Now, its too late to say sorry,
to say you're never gonna leave me...A-l-o-n-e!!!

Now, its - Comin' back, its making me sad,
you're making it hard, to saaa-ay-y...

Goodbyes...and farewells,
Goodbyes and farewells......
GOODBYES and FARE-WELLS!
go-od byes.......

and farewells....




This is a really special song and I might do this on a guitar someday but for now, this is all :)